19.10.12

I was hoping for something big..........































OK I have to admit it.  I was out looking for something big and impressive. Too much drama in your life and losing the run of yourself will have that effect!

I was stalking the heron always liable to show up even if he is flying away from me, and I knew the swans were back on the lake for the winter. I was there, waiting, ready to shoot. Even sounds so wrong now! Ready to "shoot." Full of expectation and hoping for bigger, for better, for perfection!

I was rationalising and angsting, big time. Listening to bulldozers in the distance, fearing the changes that are taking place all around here as agriculture becomes the new boom business. Rehearsing some sad tale in my head about the decline of the wilderness and the end of civilization as we know it.

The next big thing never made an entrance. I was forced to stand there, to be there, to let the light find me. The reeds reflected patterns in the water, the fish surfaced and disappeared again. Thrushes flitted cleverly creating constant distractions as I missed each one!

Then I noticed the little guys! All the time they were there in the bushes and trees. Too small, too bland, too common.....I had spent a day trying to write something about "what I've learned from blogging." And here it was writ large.  That "trying" too hard doesn't work. That trusting the process is essential. That small stuff is good stuff if that's the story that is there to be told.

It's the only way that feels real to me anyway. A lesson in humility learned and yes I'm still holding out for the big guys too when they finally decide to show up!






21 comments:

  1. I'm glad the small guys took central stage, lovely photos. I'm sorry you didn't win the blog award, I like you new look and after taken advantage of you free screensaver, it will make a change from my photos! Thank you.
    Sarah x

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    1. You are welcome Sarah! Thanks for all your support:~)

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  2. Oh I do love those small guys, they're so homely, chatting outside my kitchen window. A lovely perspective on the right photo, blog post, paragraph that never seems to materialise!

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    1. Ah yes Fiona, it happens to us all! Thanks for that:~)

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  3. "That small stuff is good stuff...." Oh Yes Oh Yes my friend! I am seeing that every day in my life.
    Fantastic post .... the words speak to my heart.....and I LOVE your images :)

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    1. Kerri, I know you know!! I sometimes feel you beside me out in the field and up on the screen:~))

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  4. That first picture is just amazing - they are all beautiful really, but the first one (for me) is purely 'wow'

    Sorry you didn't win, but so nice to be in the running.

    Have a beautiful weekend

    Nina x

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    1. Thanks Nina, it was really great to be there, as you say in the running, and totally unexpected:~)

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  5. Isn't it wonderful to notice the little things...sometimes I have so much to say, I need to write more posts and have no time, but I have my ideas listed and ready. Then I take my camera out and wander around the garden looking for colors, light and critters that catch me at the moment...funny how I can live in the moment in my garden but not in my life...but I will keep trying...one day it will happen...just a wonderful post!

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  6. You're with kindred spirits here :)

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  7. Those small guys are so beautiful! It was so lovely to finally meet you on Saturday!

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    1. Thanks Margaret, it was so much fun:~))

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  8. The little guys are what it's all about aren't they? Lovely to meet you at the Blog Awards and great to see your picture up here now xx

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  9. I so know what you mean here. Forever and always chasing the BIG splash..the BIG bird..the BIG thing in the BIG day - when really it's the littlest of things that - when strung together - make a life!

    Beautiful!

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    1. Thanks Marcie! Lesson learned, yet again!!

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  10. "That small stuff is good stuff if that's the story that is there to be told" ... never a truer word spoken. Large or small your 'stuff' has such heart!

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  11. Lovely photos and I still think you should have won the blog award.

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  12. Wonderful, thought-provoking post. I too know that trying too hard does not work. Trusting and letting 'it' be, whatever 'it' is works for me.

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  13. Intriguing what you think about when you don your wellies Catherine. BTW the little birds in the top two pics are 'long tailed tits' usually to found in woodland - sensible really because they'd probably get blown away on these cliffs.

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